Worse week of the year up to now

John Roach came in morning went school in rain wanted it to stop coz of meeting Catherine. Never spoke to her today. Walked home with Joanne, she said they don’t speak to Cath because she didn’t want to be alone with me yesterday dinner. I asked Joanne could she try and get Cath to phone she said she’ll try. At 5pm Debbie rang* and said Catherine doesn’t want to go out with me anymore but she still likes me. She broke it to me gently and asked me was I upset, I said no. Debbie’s voice sounded sympathetic. After went in my bedroom and felt like crying but didn’t. Big boys don’t cry. It sounds so stupid, a rough guy like he, hardest in Woolston. I’m just sentimental. The dream is over, let it be. Went playing soccer with Neil Mort and co, then went in his house. My mum and dad went out at night.

* Debbie Sutch rang me and informed me that Catherine doesn’t want to go out with me anymore. I was gutted. Debs was very sympathetic, (I have since spoken to Debs via email and we discussed this but she doesn’t remember the conversation ) I came off the phone and went into my bedroom and felt very sad and disappointed. I think I cried or at least almost cried, I was very upset.